Cross That Line

Happy 18th Birthday Sharina!
Hope you like your bday present :)

Sharina's 18th retro themed party was awesome yesterday night. Minus the part we got lost, with the taxi driver himself. All of them! And the shuttle bus took forever to reach. But anyhoos, since I fell into a deep sleep and ditched Fazz and Haikal's plan to watch Transformers with them, I had to meet them at Tanah Merah instead. I was the only one living in the East lah kan. So I was early. Met the STA kids and Nadhzry there. I swear the shuttle bus should just shut down their stupid service. 15 bucks cab fare, unknowledgeable and rude taxi drivers, we reached National Service Resort Country Club. All hail Haikal's iPhone. Lol, the only reliable thing.

Okay, more photos will be upload at FB soon. I am still in love with the country club and bungalow can? Super posh, windy, nice atmosphere and company. And we had another problem. Problem with going back. Always the transport problem. Me, Nat Yeo and Jared had to work this long ulu road. Which didn't had cabs around -.- But then there was this nice couple who was willing to share us in their cab till the main road. How nice is that! Home sweet home, but I had a feverrrrrrr. Not cool. Not cool at all.

Member nk step poker face. Haha

Sick = lousy feelinggggg. But Aidil Alfian here decided to cheer me up. He was super funny, I tell you. He keep dancing to BackstreetBoys,Akon songs. Dah feeling feeling dance ni semua, in the end he got shy and hide himself under his beanie. Haha, I don't know why I find it cute when pple are naturally shy. And he send me this Bobby Lee's? video which was fucking funny. Well, in simple terms, thank you to him for cheering me up. Oh did I tell you he was a very old friend who doesn't rmbr me at all? Sad case right. Haha.

So the case of H1N1 at Rp has been spreading like news kalah CNN, and how kecoh the students are, is undesribable. Lol. And I am still upset that they didn't extend the holidays for whole school except for the Year Ones, which I find it ridiculous pls. And this morning I heard one of students on my blk has confirmed swine flu-infected, can I least smell holidays pls? Haha. I'm sickkkkkkkk :(

I find it hard to walk away sometimes. I find it harder to accept that you never alter yourself.

Its Too Late To Apologise

Fate decides who walks into your life.
You decide who stays,
who you allow to walk away,
and who you refuse to let you leave you.

Its my decision. I think both of you don't even deserve my attention nor you guys even deserve to have any friendship ties with me. I think I was too gullible back then. Why give me numerous missed calls and text messages now? You're wasting your freaking prepaid. If you guys do have balls, then say it to my face that you're sorry. I gave chances to show your sincereness. But you're still taking advantage of my kindness. Don't even try to pretend or act innocent. Cos I know every single thing about you. And the sad thing is, you friends told me so. Not just some random people. Why shouldn't I listen to them? You tell me. Oh well, life goes on. I've decided not to look back in anger. Lucky you.

Life's Been A Bitch, Lately.

Random Updates. (Shamim-inspired. Haha)
Because there's so much things happening, sometimes i, myself cannot catch up with the pace -.-

• the two weeks of work has been dramatic much. how dramatic? almost everyday there's a different drama. be it personal or work
• drama = stress = very mood swing
• and that's when i found out K wasn't much of a very nice person
• but its okay, i consider it as a blessing in disguise. see how much friends i've made/and be close to due to him
• school's been extra shitty.
• though i went to school for the straight four days (which is already "wow" to me)
• but on thurs, i found out my history faci marked me absent. cb! am i that invisible?!
• i feel like bashing him up if i got another warning letter from school (mcm faham only)
• so yes, since I am so sleep-deprived, got fed up of school, skipped photography class but only went for my test.
  
• i wasted cab fares on thurs from school in order to reach work on time and also to school -.-
• i spend my june pay like water.
  
• no, not on clothes. on cigarettes and food -.-"
• yes, i have a very very bad habit now. heavy smoker , heavy eater.
  
• one pack a day, no wonder my money disappear into thin air
• at that point of time, i felt that i've got no one to talk to, A's away to my dream holiday destination, haikal and the others went for Ns, JunJie's migrating to China for a month (haha) K's been a bitch. full stop.
• I've gain weight like crazy, omg!
• can't wait! can't wait for july pay! i need more jeans because can't fit in to some anymore :( need more clothesssssssss! and an ipod maybe?
• i want to go zara, topshop, mango, forever 21! and lots more
• Still deciding, new haircut?, new hair colour? I just need a new image
  
• i seriously need to update photos here man. but there's just too much, why isn't there such things as bulk uploader here?
• lepak sessions is loved!
• rashes is back again, now both my hands and legs!
• i seriously need to clean up my room before raya
• mum says "if u don't clean up your wardrobe, don't buy anymore clothes. because if it goes missing, its your fault, not mine. your wardrobe looks like a forest"
• then buy me a bigger wardrobe lah *rolls eyes* hahahaha
• after waany told me about my sad entries, then i realised i have 10 sad entries straight in a row. didn't know i was THAT emotional -.-
• don't worry readers, i am not sad all the time. its just how i pour my feelings to. i am different outside, trust me. haha
• so many june babies, so many parties. talking about birthdays, i am actually psyched for mine which is still 2 months away. lol.
• no tailor made baju kurungs/kebaya for Raya this year, first time in my 18 years.
  
• I vowed to myself not to be emotionally attached to someone just yet. Dhai, you have the permission to slap me.
• I've always hated how the song Cinta Ini Membunuhku can make me cry. (Okay Dhai, slap me. Haha)
• I have a new name, 2 tempeks and a boyfriend named Babyboi (hahaha, inside joke)
  
• Friday night out plans went wrong. You know how much I was looking forward to watch Deputy Siren :(
• You're not the person I used to know anymore. "People change"
• I owe alot of people birthday presents. I always love to do/give something different, but this year, don't know whats wrong with me either. Lost the vibe baby.
  
• I absolutely hate how can a family fight about money. I wouldn't wana exchange money to someone so precious. I just want grandpa back :(
• This is what I hate the most, bad day at work/school. Coming home with Mum telling me about the money issue.
• Can I be carefree for a moment?
• I want a long, long, long, holiday!!!
• I need a personal assistant to make my things organised.
  
• I want to stop dating and stop caring/loving someone. See if it makes a difference.
  
• Needs to hit the gym, pool etc.
• O, I won't take you back. Sorry.
• I am sleepy and I need to wake up early for Dhai's Cousin's wedding tmr.
• Shit, I've still not decided on what to wear. Okay gtg.
  
• Goodbye world. I talked too much today. haha

Babies

(Not in picture, Etp peeps, Kak Nurza etc.)
Do you guys know that everyday I secretly thank God that I have you guys in my life? For all your support, care & concern, love and most importantly, thank you so much for being there :)
I love you guys deep deep <3
Hahaha.

So school has been kinda sucky. Like it has always been. Haha. First two days of school, and there are tests for us. Photography test was do-able, but History of the Arts was hardcore difficult (stupid essay questions and old oil paintings. Digital Media Arts's filming yesterday was frustrating and today's problem so far is -.- Well, you know what I mean. Haha. Early in the morning I was already planning to skip school but I saw Dad was still in the toilet. Alah rosak plan. And I thought of skipping school halfway for work but I didn't bring my uniform with me. Haaaa... I miss working and my fellow Escapians!

Alright, proper update with more photos soon. For now, I'm still deciding whether I should go to work, but Grandma's in the hospital :( How ah?

Pictures Of You, Pictures Of Me

Missing someone

gets easier everyday

because even though

you are one day further

from the last time

you saw them

you are one day closer

to the next time you will.

Credits FLB.

I am just writing to kill time. Daddy just spare me some money to buy my own external hard disk just now at The PC Show, and also because its not fair(!), that he spare some money for bro's bike and none for me! So yes, I'm transferring all my 100 plus photo albums, songs and other files to it. Hehehe I am so happy cause I am hoping my laptop will be lagging no more. Hohoho.

And I just realised this week, I've always been looking at those old photos. (I am doing it again now -.-) Maybe I just miss those old times. Well, yeah. I know my mind's disarray most of the time, but if you were me, who wouldn't? You said you want to, but at the same time I feel you don't want to, you said you want to change, but you never did. They say time changes everything, but I think they're really mistaken because if people want to do so, they can change whenever they want. Its just up to them. Agree?

Believe me or not, a person who I just barely know for an hour (yes, an hour!), talked some sense into me. Nothing lasts forever, true enough. Waiting is alright. But sometimes it does get a little tiring. Sigh.

Okay, before my blog turns into some place where I dump my sorrow shits into, I better stop writing. Haha. Will post some photos soon once my laptop and desktop is organised. Oh my, Look at the time, I have school tmr! Damn. School makes my face go -.-

Confessions Of A Broken Heart

I still can't believe you were the one who build me up,
and tear me down.

Okay Dhai, slap me -.-

Over You

You utterly disgust me. You and him (Z) are like from the same species of animals. Psychotic, heartless guys who are just too desperate that you guys are professionally-inclined to do this. Its like a playback system for you guys. That you guys move on so fast, there's always a spare ready. You can talk or tell the whole world about your stupid lovey dovey sweet talk love story, but its all full of crap and bullshits. The best thing is that, you are a two-faced bastard. Maybe your "angel side" doesn't work on me anymore. I wouldn't mind that, but please don't go around brainwashing other people in your selfish manipulative ways, so that they will think we're the ones, psychotic. Low self-esteem jerk, and desperate for attention. I hope God will make karma worst for you.

In the meantime, sorry to say this but your secret's not safe with me. Cos you're definitely fucking not worth it, bitch.

Talk You Down

Hohoho! I'm back from my short hiatus. Have been working for straight 7 days and 5 full day shifts. I am so sick of being a workaholic and so sick of the stress from work. I don't even wana mention what happened. This week's been pretty dramatic, I guess. Haha. Just that there's alot of things going on be it personal or other reasons. And now it feels as if everyone's leaving. It sure doesn't feel the same :(

And you, K. You're a heartbreaker, and honestly my emotions almost went mad yesterday when I heard I'm not the only one getting hurt. You and your manipulative ways, huh? Well, guess what, you're messing with the wrong person.

Okay to hell with boys. Haha.

I am so deprived of hangouts. Gtg babies. Proper update soon.